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hmm.., whats your dream hair? i change my hairstyle periodically. though they're not extreme makeovers, but they are different from one another. dug out incubus recently and googled a little about them. and i saw a photo of main vocalist Brandon Boyd's curly hair. thats exactly how i hope my hair would be in the future. there's a time i wanted that badly, but long hair is so troublesome and irking. anyways, so i saw that photo, and that reminded me of the look. no reason for the preference, i like curlies.
armies in less than 3 weeks' time. and i've not moved a bit eversince i returned from my KL trip. i can already feel my arms shrinking (again). my photoshop crashed a day ago, ain't able to progress with my work for now, so im watching some movies while waiting for my photoshop to be fixed. hunted for "Kite Runner" after some guest mentioned it on kangxi, its good, but i think the book's gona be a lot more touching than the screen's.

i need to be disciplined, motivated, and perservere for the next few weeks! work and exercise, that are. laziness is one major weakness of mine. :/

Its another additional number added to my age,
"20"09 yea.

So much changes since 16,
counting on till 20,
its amazing to realise that
it has been only 4 years.

4 years.
so much experience,
so much changes,
so much mistakes,
so much lessons,
so much discoveries,
so much, so much.
really frightening to recall the events
that happened machiam lightning (ahhh.)

i attended jeanette's party the other day
and i laughed, haha. 21 already,
that was mid-july.
and then servien's birthday on 30th july,
i emailed her my greetings with work-related attachments and said
"poor thing, birthday doing work."
that was her 2*(mid, haha).
and then august was on the damn calendar.
and today's 14th.
used to be eager over my birthday
now i try not to think about it

lucky enough to chance upon
various type of people, good and bad.
life is too short to make all mistakes
and we that is why we learn from others.

met and know people with different principles
some puts passion in the front
some puts teamwork in the front
some puts selfishness in the front
some puts achievements in the front
some puts love in the front
some puts family in the front
some puts satisfaction in the front
some puts work in the front

everyone take difference stances
so there bound to be collision
bound to have misunderstandings
maybe im simple minded
i feel that so long i've worked with that person
and we can clique along
that is enough for me to call him/her friend.
i don't need them to agree with my thinking
cos i will not change my thinking
and i don't have to hate or blacklist or discriminate.

everyone needs more encouragement.
im not someone who initiates converstions
nor good at speaking.
just normal guy who will share his mind.
because i grew up feeding on views of adults
and even normal conversations spoken by others.

i frown at immature youths who does all sort of stupid things
but at the same time, i feel sad for them.
its seemed like they haven't had someone there
someone who is willing to guide them.
most teachers like bad students like us,
who don't do homework, who score badly,
but the amount of care and guidance given was so much
this little motivation, encourages us to strive
at least for the kind teachers who did not give up on us.
i wasn't a bad student, just lazy.
but a little motivation really helps.

i always think that family makes a huge difference to how each child behave and react. Whether they're passive or active, stubborn or forgiving, scheming or happy-go-lucky, independent or reliant. when we understood their situation, every mistakes are just only reasonable. we don't have to resent their way of living. because i grew up learning from friends. my parents doesnt tell me whats right whats wrong, my siblings doesn't tell me about their life. i grew up with an immature mind, absorbing whats right as i interact with others. i guess without love and work, i would end up loitering around void decks vandalising and smoking my life away. it wasnt easy to grow this way, and i don't complain about it, because i believe im much luckier than those who were trapped in it, without any rescue.

20.
is just another beginning.
and there's still a long learning path ahead.
but i will move on together with hope and dreams.
and a little more courage
a little more motivation
a little more trust.

thanks to all those who's a part of my grow up.
part of at least a chapter in my life,
and those who grew up with me.
i wish everyone and their family to be healthy,
and a step closer to their dreams.
and please do the right things,
dont be stupidly blinded by unmaterialistic things.
i really hope, even for myself,
that i remained this simple heart and mind,
even when im old.

most guys doesnt express themselves verbally,
aint no exceptions.
and i know there's at least a person
who cared and is concerned about me,
i tell only the truth that i care
even if its inside the heart.
that is why i want to be stronger,
all roundedly stronger.
i want to be a support,
than to be the one leaning.
im sorry for being really stubborn.

i always think that there's a timing,
a timing for things to happen.
when you had no idea what to do
or how to carry on and worrying doesnt make things work,
just be patient.
solutions will come looking for you
at the right timing.
its naive and unrealistic,
but i believed in that.

don't be stingy to yourself,
take a break when you're all tired,
and read and do things that you like,
or haven had the time to do so.
recharge, and go all out again.

GO!

Thanks js and james who kind of celebrated my birthday through a series of coincidence and on the spot decisions.

how old were you when you listened to this song?
i guess i was primary 5 or 6

its a national day song. the teachers forced the song into our ears. played it in the morning assembly, played it during music lessons, played it after recess. (i love it cos we can skip class)

who were the ones who sang this along with you?
the entire singapore students. i dun think much adult back then liked national day songs. and to be precise, my classmates sang with me. i admit, i cant rmb who were they. i don't have much primary school friends, they went all missing. but i do remember how our primary school teachers taught us. my P6 form teacher knew tanya! think it was xiyao who told me that.

and then there's other national day themes created all these years. can i say that most of us were numb about them? or are that few songs during our time the only ones remembered?

to me, "where i belong" is my choice.
especially the first few verses. this is the song that will brighten up my heart when i listen to it. but chances of hearing it now is so low, unless we searched for it on purpose.


childhood memories eh? music does make a difference. imagine national days without songs like count on me, one people one nation one singapore (dun rly like this one cos its so draggy), stand up for singapore, and we are singapore (with the pledge inside). i think we won't love singapore as much as we do right now. though there will be memories, but its these songs that reminded us of our companions, loved one, and experiences, almost every year, on the 9th august.

i really like the mv of the song, where tanya sang the song in the cab. i think public transports are the best place to day dream. and we spend so much of our time dreaming while travelling, looking out of the windows, seeing the same buildings, same sky, same road, same railings, same plantations, same vehicles, dangerous taxi drivers, irritating off lane bikers. these are the things that made me smile and reminisce about everything. you know singapore is pretty small, and you'll be using that same express way. going orchard for work, going school, heading back home etc. so many beautiful dreams were painted on the expressway. they were memories in this land of peace.

am not born in this land, but was brought over when im around 1 month old. i do miss malaysia, but they were childhood memories with my close cousins, relatives and fun we had during festive holidays when we went back for visit. it is this land, that i grow, study, get punished, and live!
"home" is the national all-time favourite, but i find the melody a little too sad, though the lyrics fitted well. thats why there's newer versions, which are detested. oh! there's this malay song thats being played during children's day that goes, "sama sama majukehadapan, pandai cari perla jalan, jaga diri..." i loved that one too. though i dun rmb the title. the new remix sucked too.

August is here! Turning 20 after a week or so. been staying home for the past one month (with occasional meetups), doing design, flash and preparation for an online business. But i spend most of my time watching online streamings (animes and varieties). haha.

I guess most of us has got problem adjusting our body clock. When you had nothing to do for the next morning, or the entire day, you tend to drag your sleeping time till the morning. I've spent the past few days conqueroring my body clock back to normal, and i must say its a success! The reason why i forced myself is because i find that time is always insufficient when you sleep late and wake up in the evening. I get backaches, brain mulfunctioning, bad temper, and machiam time is just for wasting. =/ you know you'll feel happier when you wake up in the morning looking at that sun (though i hate it when it gets too warm), and enjoying breakfast, lunch and diner. I used to only had diner, and junks for supper, for the entire day.

I really liked twitter!! though im playing with most of the time with myself, and like 2, 3 friends only. its almost like blogging. I like it because i don't have to write an entire entry like i do for blogs, just have to write a sentence or two. Perfect for lazy and random people like myself. And there are many interesting tweetlings around the world. am trying to get my hands on tumblr., but its still hard for me to handle the codings. So, i shall continue discoverying it when i had more time. Its busy week for me, with the varies deadlines for myself. But i had fun getting pek chek and happy after that. follow me!

then i realised that its human nature to compare. simple comparisons like life, age, looks, adornment, mentality, financial capabilities, talent, personalities etc. we usually get upset after comparison because we're never satisfied with anything. how often do we compare ourselves with the less fortunate and start cherishing whatever we had? everyone knew the concept, but tends to compare with the superiors, and sigh. Im no exceptions, but i have to say im lucky to be selfish, selfishly loving myself. im not a rational person, but on the inside, i know that there's no ending to comparisons. whats important to me, is knowing where i stand, why i stood and where else im heading towards. the last part is of course, still, a challenge to teens at my age. and most of them weren't even aware about it. but they were the happy and contented ones. Its fine to compare and sigh, but its important to get out of that envious atmosphere and get back to where you are. :)) i really love this phrase, "know and understand what you want". there is no one definition nor concluding sentence for that, for its always changing.

I'll have a good post up on my birthday, i really had a lot to say about myself. will take that opportunity to thank everyone thats a part of my life.

i still miss that one month getaway in april when i consolidate the photos. =/ nvm, life goes on with better memories. haha. jya.

Its been long since i've updated, work started, so i didn't have the motivation to type anything 'cause i'll be dead tired when i reach home. Actually, its not the job that's tiring, but the 16-stations train journey. If i get to sit, i'll still be sleepy when i wake up from the nap, else i'll be standing for 16 stations.

The getaway trip was awesome, i had great fun! I'll not cover in details for my one month getaway. I've got thousands of photos to photoshop, but i'm not having enough time to do so. What's worse is, i don't have photoshop on my acer =/ but i do have cs4 on my macbook, working very slow. Will upload 'em on facebook once i've consolidate and photoshopped the necessary pictures. And im still procastinating my web design project because of work. Didn't had the state of mind to design em yet.

The first week of june ended, and it passed very fast for me. Maybe because i am much familiar with how reprographics worked. I admit there were sleepy moments where i almost dozed off. I've never read this much news in my life when i had nothing to do. Didn't had the access to facebook nor any communication websites. Read an average 30 pages of fmylife.com, and i've completed browsing the photo gallery of Time.com.

 
(Left: Tuktuk on the first day to MBK; Right: The peaceful Floating Market)

The weather is freaking warm for the past one month. Almost everyday. Its so humid my skin turns sticky within minutes out on streets and I don't even have to be under the sun. by the way, did i say my enlistment's in october? Exercise shall come later,.

I came across this chinese alternative track when im watching mtv chinese the other night. 罗素广场 by 果味VC. I liked the melody and voice of the lead singer. No, nothing close to mainstream, unless alternative and indie chinese is turning mains'. Tried to imeem and youtube, but there's no video of it. Found it on tudou.

Okay, having nothing in mind on what else to blog on, i present to you the peaceful almost-sunset moment when i was in Chiang Mai. It's somewhere within cycling distance from our hostel, very quiet and peaceful. I do miss those moments, but im fully aware that life goes on. and i am.

Happy I am being a freelancer doing designs own time own target. Thanks those who recommend me the jobs. There's so many programs i wish to master. Need to master the right way to use Ready Image, Illustrator, Fireworks etc. I feel as if im a multimedia student, instead of a programmer :/ artistic mind. my foot. though im earning money smoking through photoshops. haha.

April's fool. And im fooled twice already. Im really letting my guards down these days. I used to be so cautious of everything around, and i used to be the one to trick people.

I wanna get out of Singapore. I want to fly to Bangkok so badly. I need a full body massage (the clean ones). I want to return to 8 years old in Dream World. I want to look at that long yearned beach in Songkhla. I want to rest my mind so badly. Before army, i'd do a short backpacking. To truly experience and absorb the heritage and getaways from stress. I don't know why. But im stressed. Real stressed. Tiger airway, please bring me safely to the bangkok next week. But before that, I've still got a logo project in hand :/

And i realised some things can actually temporarily wash the stress out of my mind. Like the clear bright sky with beautiful clouds sticking together, the cute little babies/infants, and puppies. But stress returns the moment i stopped looking at them. damned.

And my sleeping time is upside down for the #N times. Oh. My harddisk crashed and im going to rescue it tomorrow. Provided i woke up in the mood to travel.

It's been weeks since the last paper. and results' out this morning! the results should be satisfying, but somehow there's a slight difference from expectation. okay, huge difference. I have been working very hard for the past few weeks. (: i must say i'm pretty lucky because none of the jobs derived from hard time job hunting.

Im happily using my macbook right now, because my acer died on me on wednesday midnight. when im starting to create my flash designs for a website!! yes, its the blue screen curse. I overselpt yesterday and today, so i'll bring it for servicing tomorrow. i'll sleep early today, i hope. hahaha.

And i realised im becoming more and more of an otaku. hahaha.



I researched a little on 宅男 and there's some in common. And i guess its quite a bit. Of course i will never be a hardcore otaku to be over-engrossed in anime figurines and hentai animation.

The traits (translated into english):
1. Stay home (if possible), and avoid socialising
2. More comfortable with MSN, QQ, AOL
3. Often found spacing out, unless topic of interest strikes the mind
4. Extreme figures, either fat, or skinny.
5. Enjoy anime, comic and computer games *and dorama and hk drama and 康熙来了!
6. Can stay up the whole night to complete an anime/drama
7. Keyboard is dusty, and contains unknown crumps and dandruff *no dandruff, but the rest bingo
8. Have the following symtoms; stiff-neck, backache, weary eyes, hair loss, forgetful *bullseye!
9. Time spent in front of the computer is much longer than time spent on revision
10. Irregular lifestyle

PS: These are the selected traits that resemble myself.

I think they should some of mine as consideration;
1. Sleep too much
2. Can stay on bed for the entire day facing the computer
3. Can don't speak for the entire day
4. Find going toilet troublesome
5. Can don't eat for the entire day
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Okay got overlap with laziness i realised.

This is just a getaway entry from the MIS revision.

The MIS paper this friday marks the last of our(my) polytechnic journey.

So let's just enjoy this last moment of revision, procrastination, and exam anxiety!

because after this paper, we'll all have to go separate ways to chase after our dreams and hunt a future out of our hands. this is already making me so frustrated. but the dream itself, is a beautiful thing. :)

Prelude: YES i did it again. I wrote an entry after a month when all the celebration for chinese new year and valentines passed. Integrated infocomm project ended, yes finally ended. Everything went smooth and well, and im really happy about it. But a pinch of sadness filtrates me when i come to realise that the end of project would be equivalent to the end of school. 3 years. Its coming to an end after 2 exam papers. So many things happened through this 3 years, so many mistakes, so many learnings, so much, so much. Yes. I'll like to say they're all worthwhile. and forward, we move on.


Went to Jane's third child's full month just now. luckily not a lot of people over there also. many couldn't make it due to personally reasons, so only kat and i turned up in the end. Full month. Such a sweet day for both the mother and the child. Say bye to the pandan cake custom restrictions and its a step to nurturing the child to grow up proper and not be a nuisance. The responsibility of raising a kid is so huge and overwhelming. Like what the hong kong drama always said, it takes 99 years to raise a kid. And mummies are so wei da. They have to keep fit and all. haha. Pregnancy and post delivery is such a painful process to witness. But then again, its the fruit of what a touching love produces. but then again and again, there's exceptions la.

Really happy to see jane and kat again after such a long time. Its been more than a year i guess. Everyone's the same. Kat kept the same hairstyle and is still cool and skinny as ever, jane is still maintaining her taitai gestures. But the things that we went through throughout the absence of each other in our lives is so different. Its a short session of around 2 hours. but every chat seemed like yesterday. and yesterday was years ago.

Sorry but at my current stage, i'm not planning for kids though i really love them.

Yet, another new year arrived silently. 2009. the year where i'll graduate and move on to another stage of my life. I know i've been saying i want to get old these days. simply because i wish to turn into someone who is trying his best to strive in his career. There's still alot for me to learn and endure before i actually mature and focus entirely into my career. This vision is beautify and fulfilling, yet it appeared somewhat terrifying. Perhaps its because of the lack of experience on the path to it thats scaring myself.

"20"09. Stepping onto second decade of my life soon alr! Though it doesn't really bother me much, but its an additional responsibility to myself. 20 years of my life went pass, from time to time i do reflect on myself, but gave excuses to act according my selfishness. My surrounding and encounters made me who i am and i believe thats how people see me as well, there's no need for a drastic change like acting cool and engaging mature talks. oh ya! i think i've been really noisy recently, this part i think i need to change because i irritate myself for being noisy. i don't think much people have this kind of kimochi inside them, yes very contradicting but yala must control and think before i speak.

My sis asked me for my new year resolution the other day (i think right after countdown at home). I seriously don't know. Resolution doesn't really work for me, because i side track and doesn't work towards it. Especially when things are revolving so quickly in my life, new perspectives on life may just strike me daily, weekly, monthly. who knew what will happen, especially when im still at the age where i still wish to experience and be exposed to much much more.

Perhaps a general resolution would be; to learn more, see more, express more, listen more, understand more, encounter more, experience more, feel more. I truly feel that this should be the resolution of all youths, or even adults. A concrete target like getting good results, being (trying for me) nice to your family blabla are rightfully, the things that we should do actually.

Been really busy these days because of school projects. Don't know pangseh-ed how many meet-ups alr haha. Of course im not that focused like everyday also spend 10 hours in front of the computer doing work. There's still time for TVs and 康熙 you know. But i'm going to be real busy this week because there's so much that we have to complete by this week. I still spend 2 hours to get into sleep, and miracally i get up on time without having to cab to school. Its the first week of school and i've only cabbed to school on wednesday because its a 9am lesson. yay! and i don't anyhow spend money anymore! kay la its because i haven't been shopping nor spotted any thing that im dying to buy. good la, save money. Chinese new year clothings also haven't buy =/ don't intend to as well, unless there's a huge sale with nice clothes, which is seldom possible.

Okay i know im very outdated but i fell in love with sogou.com because there's a large variety of chinese oldies for me to download. i haven't been downloading song so don't know where to download except baidu and qihoo. but both sites died for foriegn IPs. tsk. really happy to be able to listen to songs by Anita Mui (女人心, 坏女孩, 梦幻的拥抱 etc); 黄舒骏; 蓝心湄; 王菲; 那英; 黎明; 郭富城 and so much more. I even downloaded 罗百吉's [Fire 战斗], so happy to find this because i've been looking for this song since last last year 2007. It's the 台客 song.

And i really like this song by Mayday, 軋車. came across this song when i was watching 百万大歌星. hokkien happy gua.